In January, I told myself that this year was going to be different. Truthfully, I was ready to just be. To embrace the little things that make me unique instead of molding myself into somebody I’m not. Then, at just the right time, I discovered the motto “good for you, not for me” in Amy Poehler’s new book and thought to myself “YES PLEASE.” It became clear that in order to just be, I needed to do the very thing that scared me the most: slow down. For the past year, back pain dictated what I could and could not do. Most days, I wasn’t able to work for more than 30 minutes without feeling a terrible surge shoot down from my neck to my upper back. I feared that slowing my pace would set my business back, so I kept going. But that was a dumb idea. Turns out, working through pain is definitely not sustainable.
So I slowed down. At first, it was the worst. Social media was constantly showing me the cool things others were doing. Person A was collaborating with so and so. Person B was moving into a cool studio downtown. Person C was traveling the globe and getting paid to do it. In our highly visual world, it’s easy to feel as if we need to do all of the things. But we don’t. I found myself repeating the motto “good for you, not for me” and continued to focus on slowing down. And it felt amazing!! Being yourself is the best medicine.
In my extra time, I’ve started practicing yoga everyday. I feel more awake, creatively driven, and most importantly — healthy, both physically and mentally. I’ve realized that success, to me, is inner peace. It comes from staying true to who you are and what you love. It’s natural, beautiful, and very much contagious. I have a long way to go and some bad habits to break, but if slowing down has taught me one thing, it’s that doing is easy and being is hard. I think I’ll let the latter be my guide.