There’s this nagging question that’s been coming up over and over again in my head lately. What do I really want? For years, I’ve been following this meticulously carved path that I created myself. Start my own business, check. Make money, check. Buy a house, check. Do all of these other various “important” things, check. But is it what I really want? Maybe. Maybe not. I know this all sounds pretty vague and possibly dramatic (ha), but change is inevitable in this little thing called life. For all of us. I mean, don’t get me wrong … I absolutely LOVE my job and am grateful that I get to help other creatives tell their own unique stories. But sometimes, the very path that I carefully laid out myself, and the push for “success,” wears me out a little too much. And that’s the part that has me looking around + longing for some sort of shift.
So what do I really want? Gooood question. It’s funny how we can be SO sure of what we think we want, but so unsure of what we really want. As somebody who thrives on planning, this sort of uncertainty would usually freak me out. But this year, things are different. I’m learning how to embrace change, slow down, adapt, carry on, and find what feels good. So whenever I reach a crossroads, or feel stuck (in work OR life), I use that same question (what do I really want) as a compass and just go. It’s still hard for me not to constantly plan or wonder about the future, but truthfully, we don’t always need to understand the bigger picture anyway. Whatever will be, will be. So let’s see. :)
PS. I talk a little more about this topic in tomorrow’s Inside Insights newsletter over on Be Free, Lance. Every other week, Jen and I share stories from our own freelancing journeys in hopes that they will encourage you to continue on your own path in a way that works best for you. To get these, you can sign up right here! See ya there.